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It really stinks that I don’t have internet at home. So I have to use somebody elses computer which is not always often. But hopefully I’ll get internet soon. There is never enough time to write everything I want to say like last time when I was rushed. So here it goes.
I always had the most fun at the sleepovers we had. We would stay up till 3:30 and wake up at 8 and jump into the hottub. It was amazing to see all things we had in common like our love for: horese, books, drawing, poetry, japanamation, dancing, singing, shopping, swimming, mythical creatures, and so much more. We also liked the reinassance time period.And that’s why I wish that she could have come to my birthday party at the Reinassance Festival. There was no other person I would rather take. But I guess we can’t have everything we want.I owed to her for all the times I went to her house. She was the one who started my intrest in Sailor Moon. And I will always continue that interest for her. Time is running out again and so it is time for me to go.

hora voir and love always, ( excuse my spelling)
sailor saturn, shayna
P.S.SKNURT TSOL SIH SKNURT!!
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The other day I went to the N*sync concert. I really had second thoughts about going because every year before that Krissy and I would always try and get tickets. This year when I heard I got them, I was happy, yet i felt a lot of sadness. I thought about it again and thought: I bet Krissy was on the phone and she was the one who got me through the line. That helped. During the concert, they played my favortie song and it was also hers too. At that moment I wanted to break down and cry. But something kept me from doing that. It felt as if she was there with me, enjoying the concert. I got chills and a creepy feeling that she was standing right next to me screaming her heart out and loving them just as much as I was. And all of the sudden I was smiling and I couldnt stop! and it was as if she was making me smile and telling me to enjoy it and to be comforted because she was there with me. It was then when tears of joy came down my face. It been hard for me lately. I feel as though I should be trying to get over this. But I cant. So many memories fill my head every day and it seems as if not a day goes by when I dont think about her. Songs, and places and everything reminds me of her. At the KU studio there is a very beautiful picture of her and I always say hello and goodbye to her every time im there. I was surfing the web the other day and found this Sailor Moon site, and there was this song that was playing and it reminded me of Kristin. I could just hear her voice saying something like: oh wow! i really love this song!and then it also made me think that this would be a song that she would have LOVED to dance to. I have the site and e-mail me if you would want to listen. Tayrn I cant imagine how hard this is for you and if Im having this much trouble all of my thoughts and prayers are with you and if you ever need anything im here for you. For anyone who is reading this, i just want to say that its ok to express our feelings however we want. I just learned this.(thank you virginia) How ever much we want to break down sometimes and cry, we shouldnt hold back. but we must also think that she is in a much better place now. and if we have any resent about doing anything, we should know that she would want us to do that. Like the other day when i went to pick up taryns girls, i did not want to go to the house. even though i was shaking as i walked up the steps, i knew that krissy would want me to be there. i havent gone inside yet though. but krissy is over looking all of us and a little bit of her is with each and every one of us. she loves us and we love her and she knows that. i also think that beliving that things happen for a reason works too. she missed her dad so much and we just have to remember that. I also think this site is very helpful! it is so nice and words cant express how i feel about this site. i was looking through the web sites and i was remebering when i was over at krissys house with her and watching her bulid her SM site and how happy she was with her accomplishment it was almost contagious! I really didnt know what to write on the discussion board. but i think just writing down whatever you want to say or your feelings really works. i know that whenever i need to talk or remember ill come here. thats a good idea for everyone else as well! i love everyone and anyone who reads this and i know we will all get through this together!

I miss you so much. Sailormoon just isn’t the same without you. Down here they took it off the air because it was to expensive to dubb. But lucky for you, you probably get to watch it 24/7. Your webpage is absolutely wonderful and Taryn has done a great job. I’m giving the adress out to all my friends(sailormoon crazed, too). I will always remember are times at Old Tucson. Our so many adventures. Never forget them.

love always n’TTFN TA TA FOR NOW,

SAILOR SATURN(SHAYNA VERCILLO)

p.s.sknurt tsol sih sknurt

As I continue the process of picking music for our big show in October I found a piece of music called 12th street rag I intended to use for Starlight class, well it requires a “kitchen band” (lots of fun percussion instruments. I know Kristin would have been able to decipher all the drum symbols etc. I have decided not to use this piece for now, I miss her so much and know I couldn’t do it justice. The power of the loss is so great and when things come up that were so dear to her it really brings it home to the deepest parts of my heart. Her beautiful spirit is deeply missed. Carol

Members of the community who have lost a child at any age and from any cause are invited to join in a nation wide blood drive. It will be held across the country throughout the month of July, 2001. The drive is sponsored by the M.I.S.S. Foundation to promote the Kindness Project. The M.I.S.S. Foundation’s Kindness Project focuses on healing after a child’s death by giving back to the community in memory of a special child. Family, friends, and community members who have been touched by the tragedy of a child’s death are encouraged to participate.
This will be the first annual blood drive of its kind. Go to your local hospital or blood bank during the month of July and give blood to give life. Nationwide, nearly more than 38,000 babies are stillborn 20,000 babies die within the first year of life and tens of thousands of children die from disease, child abuse, homicide, motor vehicle accidents, drowning, undeterminable causes, and suicide.

My brother Rich and my sister Shelly have both donated blood in Kristin’s memory this month. If you live in Tucson and are interested in doing this, I have ‘kindness cards’ in Kristin’s name to be given to the blood bank. If you don’t live here, just let them know that you are donating in memory of Kristin Kay Smith. Please respond to this message or send me an e-mail if you participate in this project.

Thank you.

In 1999 when Kristin went to Grace Youth Camp she stayed with us after after camp. We had a lot of fun with her, Haley and Marcus fishing, teaching her tennis and playing games. I’m so glad that we had that time with her and we really miss her smiling face. My thoughts and prayers are with you Taryn, Amber, Cheyenne, and family. Love Aunt Gail & Uncle Bob

Dear Kristin,
I was thinking about before Christmas when mom went shopping and we got scared because we heard a noise in the house. You took us in the downstairs bathroom and locked the door. After a while we peaked under the door, then we went upstairs to see what the noise was. We found out that it was just the Christmas tree turning and scraping against the wall. Sometimes I get scared and I wish you were here.
Love, Cheyenne Smith

dear Taryn,
I wish Kristin was here right now so we could go swimming or get together somehow. I really enjoyed taking her to the pool with us and I never got to do that this summer. We really miss her. From, John and Kim

Yesterday afternoon, I was on the couch working on my homework. All of a sudden, I heard Kristin’s voice. I looked up and told my mom to look at the TV. There was Kristin and Stephanie and Katie and Rachel and Chris and David on the Kidsline commercial. I hadn’t seen it for a long time. I felt excited to see her. I was very glad. I will always miss her.

WORDS FROM OUR
ANGEL IN HEAVEN ABOVE

To my dearest family,

Some things I’d like to say but first of all to let
you know that I arrived in heaven okay.

I’m writing this from heaven where I dwell with god above,
Where there’s no tears or sadness there is just eternal love.

Please do not be unhappy just because I’m out of sight,
Remember that I’m with you every morning, noon and night.

That day I had to leave you when my life on Earth was through,
God picked me up and hugged me and He said I welcome you.

It’s good to have you back again, you were missed while you were gone.
As for your dearest family they’ll be here later on.

I need you here so badly as part of my big plan,
There’s so much that we have to do to help our mortal man.

Then God gave me a list of things He wished for me to do and
Foremost on
That list of mine is to watch and care for you.

And I will be beside you every day, week and year.
And when your sad I’m standing there to wipe away each tear.

And when you go to bed at night the days chores put to flight,
God and I are closest to you in the middle of the night.

When you think of my life on Earth and all those loving years,
because you’re only human they are bound to bring you tears.

But do not be afraid to cry it does relieve the pain,
remember there would be no flowers unless there was some rain.

I wish that I could tell you all that God has planned,
But if I were to tell you, you wouldn’t understand.

But one thing is certain though my life on Earth is over,
I am closer to you now that I ever was before.

And to my very many friends trust God knows what is best
I’m still not far away from you, I’m just beyond the crest.

There are rocky roads ahead of you and many hills to climb,
But together we can do it taking one day at a time.

When you are walking down the street and you’ve got me on
Your mind,
I’m walking in your footsteps only half a step behind.

And when you feel the gentle breeze or the wind upon your
Face,
That’s me giving you a great big hug or just a soft embrace.

And when it’s time for you to go from that body to be free,
Remember you’re not going, you are coming here to me.

And I will always love you from that land way up above,
Will be in touch again soon, PS: God sends his love.