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This is the first time today that I have taken the time to sit down and write. I spent much of my time today cleaning my bedroom and bathroom with few breaks in between. Partly because I want to begin the new year fresh, but mostly because it was easier to stay busy today rather than feel sorry for myself because Kristin is not here. I miss her so much.
And I am thankful for this message board so her memory can go on and I am reminded of just how may lives she touched in her 14 years. I come to this webpage often to read what others have posted. Although I don’t always write it’s good to know that I can when I need to.
It’s hard to explain but sometimes I forget she isn’t here even after two years and then suddenly the realization will hit me. I get sad when there’s something that I wish I could tell her but then I have to remember that she already knows because she is looking upon all of us.
Today I reflect on what has happend but I am thankful for all of the great memories that I have to go along with the sad. I remember how full of life she was and the way that she would get excited about something she would be telling me. I still remember the last time I actually talked to her. It was Christmas Day and she had called me to tell me about the presents she had opened that morning. Even over the phone I could hear the excitement in her voice and I could picture her smile. Today, one of the things I miss most is her hugs. No one else has ever been able to give me a hug that could compare with one from Kristin.