In Memory of Kristin Kay Smith, 10/1/1986 – 12/29/2000

A very special letter that I received (Original poster: taryn smith) January 24, 2002

Filed under: The forum from the old website — Taryn @ 12:03 am

Dear Ms. Smith,

Not knowing you and not being close to your family never really gave me the chance to talk to you. When I found out that Kristen French was still in contact with you when she babysat for your daughters I figured I had a chance to tell you how I feel and that I should let you know as soon as possible because as we both know you never know what might happen.

I considered Krissy one of my best friends. When I moved to Tucson she was one of my best and dearest friends. We gradually drew apart and by eighth grade our only connection was French class. At the beginning of the year I wanted to renew our friendship. I missed her a lot and so I started talking to her a bit more. I thought gradually we would be good friends again. When I found out that she had passed away I was devastated. It was the first time I experienced death. It was different and painful. I told myself though that no matter what I had been feeling your pain and your hurt is so much more. It was so hard but eventually I was able to get through it.

I told myself that everything happened for a reason. I looked back at my life and finally I made a connection. The reason I moved to Tucson was to meet your daughter and then to lose her. That experience made me so angry. That experience made me value life, my friends and family. I looked at everyday and I really understood how much each one was worth. But the only way for me to gain that experience was losing Krissy. That made me angry. If l could l would trade that experience to have Krissy back. I would give back everything I learned just to have her alive and smiling again but I can’t. So I owe it to Krissy and to you to do something about what I have learned. You are the one who feels most of the pain so I really owe it to you. I base my entire life on Krissy and what she has taught me. There is not a day that goes by that I don’t think of her. Now it only gives me strength and motivation. It still hurts to think that she is not here anymore but I try even harder then to do good things and value people. I want to follow my dreams even more now I will work hard so I can become a doctor and save lives so people won’t have to lose someone like Krissy.

I will not forget her. I cannot forget her. She is part of me and always will be. Everything I do in my life, every life I might save is because of you and your daughter. So I want to thank you for helping me. I want to thank you for the sacrifice you made. Krissy isn’t gone and she never will be.

Yours truly,



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